will ich ersticken an deinen süssen brüsten

So I have had the most difficult week these past couple of days, as of Tuesday I was really nauseated (no, not nauseous. things make you nauseous) anyway, I just had an awful stomach ache and a bad migraine. I thought I was hungry, low blood sugar or something... but by the near end of the day I was unsure if I was going to make it, I felt like I was going to faint. I did make it to my house after nearly feeling this way all day, I threw myself on my bed in hopes of a just passing out. My heart was just racing too much though, I was stressed because I had a lot of homework to do! anyway, I ended up throwing up. three times. It was brutal and in all seriousness I haven't even remotely figured out why. I have thrown up due to just being motion sick and sleep deprived... and so I guess that's why. I was able to finally get to sleep. I got up and wrote my paper which I am sure is very very crummy, but I needed to turn something in. Thankfully my teacher accepted my paper via email. after that I went to sleep for a long time.

then I woke up at 7:45, feeling a lot better. Ready to indulge myself in these guys:





Yes, KMFDM is awesome. still in fact. Okay yes, they played at a very small venue and have maybe lost some of their edge. but it was still a really good show. It was just bizarre seeing a band like that play at the Wonder Ballroom. It's relatively small. about half the size of the Crystal, and the stage is really really small. Most industrial bands I have seen have a lot of lights/back drop effects/etc to add to their show. thank god no smoke! So yeah, kmfdm didn't really have that... they played a rather short set only ranging from 10:15- 11:45. Playing mostly stuff from their new album Blitz which I am not to fond of, but they did play the title track from their previous album Hau Rock which I loved. Along with Light, Drug Against War, and they ended with the ever perfect song Godlike. It was a good show, the place was only half full. Apparently Sasha refused to play the roseland ever again... although it's hard for me to imagine more and more industrial shows at the wonder, it is a better option... plus... it's closer to me! Biking there is beyond easy. Skinny puppy will play there soon!

Anyway, I was still tired after the show and ended up going to sleep nearly all night instead of studying. So the next day I went to class at 7:20 and got their right about the time class started... every time I sleep too much I get nasty migranes. I am not sure why... but I got one, in which I probably did awful on this quiz. I didn't get ride of my headache until I finally drank some, little, coffee.

anyway, those couple of days were difficult. but I made it and have done a lot of sleeping, actually sleeping and not oversleeping. I also cut off all my hair.

ne var, ne yok: replikas

the replikas are a wonderful group from Turkey, the country of my dreams (and occasionally nightmares ) They were featured in a documentary about the music of Istanbul called crossing the bridge. They sound very much like Fugazi, although very influence my Sonic Youth and other similar bands... as well as a very vibrant influence of native Turkish music. I highly recommend them. As well as this film.









Kalktım bir boş havaya. yürüdüm yol durmadı
Severler hep güzeli, kalbim bomboş kalmadı
Nasıl anlatsam size, aklıma hiç gelmedi
İki evlat, üç torun, bir şerbetten tatmadı
Hayat tek nefes etmez. ölüm alem aldırmaz
Canım bir gülüş etse, ölüm güler hiç susmaz
Nasıl anlatsam size, aklıma hiç gelmedi
Suyumu içemezken, şerbet bizden olmadı

Diamonds, Furcoat, Champagne

things to do today:
read A History of Western Philosophy by Bertrand Russell
read and hopefully finish The Guermantes Way by Marcel Proust
read articles for Bilingual Ed. class
catch up on Spanish Lit. (my teacher was sick last class, so I have to go over all the notes she sent us.)
make Turkish flash cards
do yoga
start of my Spanish composition
and of course, do the tedious assignments for Spanish and Turkish


we'll see if all that happens. Although the first two and the yoga is nothing more than for my personal pleasure, I hope to accomplish this all. I also need to brush my teeth a lot.

Last night I biked all the way to SE to attend Joanne's 'Harvest Party' where I just drank wine and hot cider and watch people carve pumpkins. we ended the night by drink coffee and eating dark chocolate. it was pretty tasty but I strictly avoid much of the coffee out of pure fear that I would not sleep. I biked home and a cop scared me to death by telling me via intercom that I needed a red light. Thanks officer, you almost made me lose focus on my biking, fall over and die.

nostalgia of new york and berlin always make my day, I wish I could be either there or there during this time of year. ahhhh....

oh sweet

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